April 8, 2012 Easter Day
Acts 10:34-43; 1 Corinthians 15:1-11; John 20:1-18
Easter is like…walking down the sidewalk and happening upon a man leaning against the trunk of a tall oak tree. Then you see he’s really pouring himself into it, sweat on his brow, jaw tight. You notice that the palms of his hands are torn up from pushing on the rough bark. He’s trying to put his shoulder into it now. You hear the strain of his effort in his groaning. The man sees you staring at him and says to you wearily, “I’m holding up this tree.”
What would you like to say to the man?
Easter is a liberation holiday. It’s the Christian Passover. We go from whatever bondage we’re in (slavery, sin, death, despair) and we pass over into freedom and release and life and hope. I would want to say to the man holding up the tree, Let go! You don’t have to hold up the tree. It’s not up to you. Go do something! You’re free!
My yoga teacher had us in some postures this past week (Holy Week) to invite us to un-grip, relax, un-clench. It was so hard! I was supposed to release my shoulders, unclench my jaw, and to stop gripping in the feet, the groins, the eyebrows, and the tongue. All the places I hold the tension in my body, especially in cold weather, especially in stressful times. Alison said to us, “Stop gripping. Stop gripping. If you stop gripping…you’ll still exist. You’ll still be okay.”
Then she said the most shocking thing of all to our yoga class. “If you stop gripping, the world will not fall apart.” I hadn’t thought of that before. I’m more like the guy holding up the oak tree than I care to admit.
On that first Easter Day long ago, the way John tells the story, at first Mary Magdalene confused Jesus with the gardener. For Mary it had been a startling and confusing morning, after a difficult and grievous few days. You can’t blame her for not recognizing him. But when he said her name, she knew. John doesn’t say that at the moment Mary knew, she ran straight to Jesus and wrapped her arms around him. But maybe she did. I know I would have.
Running straight to him and throwing a hug would have been my reflex. The same reflex I have when my children come home from camp. The same reflex I have whenever I see someone I love after a difficult absence. Whenever someone is a sight for my sore eyes. I don’t think, I hug!
I assume that comes from our human grasping instinct, the one that infants display when you brush an object across their palm. Grasp! Grab! Hold on! Evolutionary biologists surmise that baby humans have the grasping instinct like other primates do, and it comes from a time when our mommies were hairier than they are now. It was our way to hold on like other primate babies hold on to their mommies.
But Jesus tells Mary, “Don’t hold on to me.” Another translation reads, “Don’t cling to me.”
After the resurrection, Jesus also did a lot of breathing on the disciples too. Easter is releasing, letting go of what was. Mary quite naturally would want to hold on tight to the manifestation of God she had come to know and deeply love. But Jesus knew better. Don’t hold on to this, Mary. God is everywhere, under your feet, in the air you breathe. I am behind and around you. I am in the stranger. I am at the table with your friends; I am in the bread.
Jesus himself had done his own letting go. Oh, he had done everything in his power in his human lifetime to teach, to heal, to proclaim the good news. He had done everything he could to show people how to cross boundaries to help one another. He had done everything he could to prepare his disciples for what was to come after. But in the end, he’d let all of that go. He, just like all of us will one day, let go of life itself. He stopped clinging and grasping and gripping, and he gave up his spirit to the greater flow of all things that be. And he died on a cross in a posture that is burned into our Christian sensibilities forever: arms outstretched in surrender, open and unclenched.
The resurrection from the dead is just one more unclenching. Even the Death Grip is released in the Easter mystery. The cold tight grave of hell is opened forever to light and life and glory. Neither might the gates of death, nor the tomb’s dark portal, nor the watchers, nor the seal, hold you as a mortal.
I’ve been glad this week that some of the blooms, buds, and flowers stayed closed in the cold, closed and protected from the threat of frost. We, like they, stay tight and gripping to protect ourselves. It’s natural. But just like a bloom or bud or flower, you can’t see our whole beauty until we open up, until we unclench ourselves. There’s nothing to fear or protect anymore. There’s no use in holding up something that’s already been upheld.
What are you holding onto? Clinging to? You might be holding on to a manifestation of God that you have grown to love, but isn’t there anymore. You might be grasping onto control of something that’s impossible to control – especially if it involves another person or if it involves the future.
You might be clutching something you can’t even name, but you feel it in your shoulders, your brow, the bottoms of your feet, your chest, or your stomach. Jesus said, Don’t cling. Let go as I have let go.
Stop gripping this Easter. The oak tree can stand by itself. Or, the oak tree might not stand, but that’s its problem. The universe is unfolding as it should. God inside you is ready to be released and shown to the world. Go do something with that. Feel free.